swing your life

well, it won't necessarily be fun all year but at least the wish from 'Happy New Year' is happy, rite? I spent my new year's eve at work. the more crowded it was, the better, i thought. still i cried at 1, rite after countdown for no reasons. when i woke up on the first, all i can remember is the previous nite song:

Billie Jean is not my lover
She's just a girl who claims that I am the one
But the kid is not my son
She says I am the one, but the kid is not my son

so much is true, i cannot call anyone my lover
*now i realize why i cried*

a very interesting note came in from my favorite writer dee in her writing Luna bukan kopaja, about human addiction for other's pain.especially those that we thought having everything, you name it beauty, money, fabulous life. apparently that's how my mum ends up watching all that infotainment crap. Sorry, my tv is only a furniture that complete my room. Rather than watching tv, I prefer watching my mirror, really fulfilling my narcissus-complex-as-you-called-it so.
But what dee wrote is so true, you can never please everyone and yourself at the same time, you'll die trying. To all silly gossips and my surrounding assumptions about me, i rather wave and smile

..have you ever walked in daylight and caught in blindness to see anything...or being around the happiest crowd and all you wanna do is to take one...only one deep breath....?
...geez... i'm exhausted...to reach you out...

Oh please take me back to the mall tonite, gotta pick my babies; they are so lonely there ;)

• Jan- I met my best friend after 3 years more we are too busy with our personal lives.
  
• Feb - I am officially an aunt 
  
• Mar - It was not easy to let go
• Apr - I was painting my office corridor wall
• May - Tough time… all I want was vacation
• Jun - I registered my birthday gift at Guess Watch n my first sunset golf
• Jul - Lombok discovery... cant believe met puspy there
  
• Aug My boss is leaving our office: a good mentor
• Sep - my insomnia was getting worse
• Oct - Batik Day is in the house: Indonesia claimed it!
• Nov - My promotion
• Dec - So many things I wish I did and I didn’t. But there just so plenty to be happy for

• the last month of the year
• rainy season
• time when everyone feels holiday mode
• sale is everywhere
• when I'm broke
  

my first day at work in kuta six years ago. i was ..what you called 'an idealist'. i remembered walked into a big stage where everyone looked cute and hip with rocker-hairstyle and i felt as stranger with my three-pieces suit and classic medium-length hair.
i survived only because of two things: my ability to adapt to change and stubbornness of the-hell-no-way-i-would-go-back attitude. yeah...i had decided that day i'd cope. i wear my old boots to remind me of the day

The Lhasa Apso originated in the ancient country of Tibet where these charming little dogs were kept by monks and nobles, and cherished as carriers of good luck. Today's Lhasa Apso may have been a result of breeding Tibetan Terriers down in size. The dogs participated in religious ceremonies and guarded the monasteries. They were never sold, but were often given as gifts.

me:If I am an animal, what kind of animal I am
doc: Definitely not cats family.. Maybe dog.. Cute little one.. Makes people smile, can be lazy but cheerful.. And adoreable..

......

I've been wondering if my medium-length hair could ever be neatly turned into a bun. apparently it is. check it out!!!...me in the office...then you know i am not that busy

Shouldn't there be a more magnificent reason I could think of rather than 'it's time'. Something like passionate love, the world is spinning when he is around, whatever...that is better than 'it's time to tie the knot'.

But I have none of that, I have no more cannot-live-without-you kind of love. All I have is willingness to be a part of one's life as he would too, witness each other's moments and grow together to be better.

there were two people who are deeply passionate of picture taking, trying to capture waterfall: one was behind the camera and the other was right in front of it.